You know, that one guy from that one show... - Unexpected & devastating
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Unexpected & devastating
I can't believe I actually have to do this. Again. This soon.
Quickly: Lizzie died about 2 1/2 hours ago. She wasn't in any pain that I am aware of, and it was quick which I am grateful for.
NOt-so-quickly:
We were just getting up and I was in the bathroom. I could see Fez waiting impatiently for me, but I heard a thud around the corner by the stairs, and was thinking "I hope she didn't just fall down the stairs." and as I went around the corner she was laying in the doorway to my bedroom which is adjacent to the stairs.
She was breathing and at first I couldn't figure out what was going on until I realized that she was probably having a seizure. It was nothing like Brody's seizures, she wasn't immediately drooling everywhere and it wasn't violent. She was laying on her left side breathing rapidly and her right front paw started twitching. Then she started to drool a bit and stopped breathing. I listened for a heartbeat but couldn't hear it. I tried to do CPR as best I could, and I was able to get some breaths in, but because of her extra long tongue, I couldn't get a good seal.
She lost bowel control and went into A-Fib. (Her heart started to flutter but was not pumping.)
I knew that there was no way I would be able to save her myself, knowing how Bonnie died (Her Mom, I posted about her a few weeks back when I found out that she had died.) I knew I had to let her go.
I always thought Fez would go first. He's 10 and has had his share of medical problems. She was only 5 and has never had any problems other than the eye injury. I knew I was going to lose Brody. This was just not in the plan. It feels empty around here without her, and I feel really bad for Fez because he's not been by himself since I got him. He's been by my side since we got home (I took him with me when I took her to the vets office) and has been very supportive.
There is so much to say but everything is all jumbled up and I can't put it together.
I loved coming home to her being so excited to see me. She would spin in circles and as soon as I got down to her level she would gewt up and give me a hug (put both paws on my shoulders) and kisses. She was my sleeping buddy. She would always be the one to get right next to me and want to sleep in the crook of my arm, if not right on my face. :)
She loved everyone she ever met, and they loved her back. There has never been a time when I ever had to worry about how she would react to people or other dogs (other than wanting to play.) so she was the one I would take with me to the park when I still had all 3. (When we moved here I took both with me so Fez wouldn't be by himself.) In fact, she liked to go to the park to see the people rather than see the other dogs.
I am grateful that I was with her from the moment she was born and at the moment that she went to the Bridge. She was only with me for 5 years, but I don't regret any moment of the five years I had with her.
I miss you, Lizzie.
Lizzie - 2/4/04-3/26/09
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![[User Picture]](http://l-userpic.livejournal.com/34305383/27224) | | From: | ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) slvr |
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| Date: | March 26th, 2009 04:46 pm (UTC) |
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awww :( I'm sorry Kevin...
![[User Picture]](http://l-userpic.livejournal.com/81943703/253993) | | From: | safy |
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| Date: | March 26th, 2009 04:47 pm (UTC) |
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I am so sorry for your loss :(
*hug*
Oh Kevin...
I'm so sorry. That sucks so much.
I'm glad you were there for her, from the beginning of her life to the end, and you know she'll be waiting for you over the Bridge.
*hugs*
I am so sorry I don't even know what to say. What sad news. Good night sweet Lizzie. I know she'll be there to greet my babies when it's time.
![[User Picture]](http://l-userpic.livejournal.com/59082739/5070033) | | From: | jblaque |
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| Date: | March 26th, 2009 05:42 pm (UTC) |
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Aw, damn...
My condolences, Kevin.
saw a sympathy post on my friends journal, and wanted to come over and say how sorry I feel for you =(
*a stranger that knows how it feels hug*
![[User Picture]](http://l-userpic.livejournal.com/2179892/14720) | | From: | doodle |
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| Date: | March 26th, 2009 09:38 pm (UTC) |
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Ugh. How awful. I'm so sorry. :( :(
Oh that's so sad. I'm so sorry for your loss. |
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